I GOTS PINK HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!
.. I don't really, my hair doesn't grow that fast.

And now I have your attention, as you know I purchased a new wig on payday just because why the fuck not, it was relatively inexpensive to what I am used to spending but again this is synthetic not human hair, but I am really loving it! Let's have a little catch up on my life shall we?

For a few weeks, I'm at my peak, I don't how or why now, I've turned into this super woman, I'm literally kicking my life in the ass, I've gone from focusing on how much I hate my body and myself, pulling out my hair, to this person I know I have the potential of being, I feel so empowered, strong and positive, life is so easy right now.

So let's start with the obvious, I'm here because I have a reason to celebrate, its my big 30, (not my birthday) but I hit the first 30 days to the rest of my life being pull free, I'm so fucking proud. I don't know where the will power has come from but I'm stoked let's hope it stays that way. Also hair is growing mad fast!

The next thing I wanted to touch on is due to the fact my motivation has sky rocketed, I've started to believe in myself again, I'm not wallowing in this pool of self hatred, I really really reallyyyyyyy dislike my body still but I feel less "hatey" about it, and what is the most logical thing to do if you don't like something? Well, you try and remove it from your life, or  you can try and live with it and end up like me, developing a psychological disorder that makes you foggy because all you concentrate on is all your flaws and how much distaste you have for them.

So 24th January 2017, I took it upon myself to start taking nutrition seriously again and start to slowly integrate exercise again, I'm sick of feeling like a fat lumpy whale with rolls, I look like the fucking Michelin man. I literally don't know how I came across it, but I remember hearing about macros back in my weight loss day but I ignored it because I was set in my ways with my clean eating (it worked for me, why fix whats not broken?) I had no clue about macros, I studied nutrition back in 6th form college and I can recall macro and micronutrients but for the life of me I had no idea what that meant (blame my old woman memory).

This next part I don't know if it was fate, coincidence or what, but somehow on FB I came across the IIFYM page (If It Fits In Your Macros), it's also known as flexible dieting, I have no idea how, but I found it, I joined and saw people's posts of success in such a short time and the best part of it all is, nothing is off limits, like the name suggests, if you can make it fit your macros you can eat it. I won't go into huge detail about it, you can google it if you want to know more, also I am no expert yet, I've been partaking for just under 2 weeks and up until about 3/4 days ago I got my macros correct and started to meet my protein requirements, but I can already notice differences! These are some of them:

• Increase in energy.
• Being able to push harder and recover faster during exercise and extending the length of time I workout.
• Walking faster to work (my phone tells me everyday how many minutes it takes to walk to work it usually varies from 12-14,  I walked to work in 10 minutes today!!!! 
• Waking up early for work so I can eat a decent breakfast (I used to sleep in 15 minutes before i had to leave and not eat or I packed my breakfast to eat at work), the reason this changed was in order to meet the protein allowance I needed to plan better for an even dispersion of protein throughout the day otherwise, I will be left at the end of the day trying to eat 2 whole large chicken breasts after being full from my already large protein filled dinner, not to mention I will be starving in the morning.
• I weighed myself I've put on weight, I measured my body, I'm still the same size, so I gained muscle, I can also physically see that I am less bloated around my abdomen.
• No more intense cravings for sugar and gauging on sweet foods. I got cravings twice and I was able to control it and adjust my macro intake to have a small treat for that day.
• I'm so much more positive and feeling a lot happier.

Say Goodbye to Fat Michelin Man, Hovis rolls Cherry!