So how's it going thus far?
Well as it's early days, this could just be the placebo effect but I feel the squeezing the bean toy using the same fingers I pull with relieved the urge to pull last night, so I didn't pull a single hair out before I went to sleep yesterday! That was the first time thats happened in a very long time, I can't even pinpoint a time where I didn't pull a hair out of my head before I went to sleep. I feel this is the peak time and really only time that I do this (evening/night).

However, I did wake up early and laid in bed for 30 minutes before work, it was a bad move because I had this urge overcome me to reach and pull, I gave in, this wasn't as disappointing as it sounds though, I pulled 4 single strands of hair from my head, thats next to nothing
compared to the hundreds I pull out in a session, in clumps, also some reason I only pull out regrowth and short/shorter strands of hair (most of the time). I feel like squeezing that bean toy has had a positive impact so far, I hope this isn't just the placebo effect like I said. It's still early days but I feel like I should celebrate every victory, I also have no urges to pull from my head tonight, but my head is trying to tempt me, I notice if I don't pull out hair my head starts itching in places almost as if it is intentionally trying to get me pull hair out, but the urge isn't strong if at all existent and I've been in bed since 7pm-ish and its now almost 1am, my hand has been running through my hair and was instantly aware and stopped with no issue, just before I wrote this blog it found some "crinkly" feeling hairs, there was one that particularly stood out, I grasped it and told myself it wouldn't be worth it and left it alone to write this post, usully the urge will still be there, badgering me to pull it out.

So I'm happy so far but so so tired, it's time to hit the hay, I have a weekend to spend with a particular man ;) Enjoy the weekend!